OTC camp day 2..still surviving. :DD

OTC camp day 1

OTC 2012

so the journey's about to begin. The packing of bags,preparation of the Uniform and the training of Physical Fitness tells me so. 

There seems to be this unexplainable reasoning as to why I chose this road,it's as though a commitment thing that I can't let go,and on another hand,it feels as though I want to make a change in things that were previously left unsettled. And yet again,it has another cloud which reads something like "to fulfil dreams that I once dreamt of".turning dreams into reality.

It's during this period of preparation which makes me think twice.Am I walking the path that I had initially chose,or am I just going along with the flow.and then again,if I end up with the latter,nothing new is going to come out of it.no matter how many more months/years of commitment am I going to give.

but there's something that am really sure of,and that is,

welfare and humanity will be the first change to come. history ain't going to repeat itself. it called for too much a worry.

It's tomorrow.but with the group like this,am pretty sure I will survive quite well? ^^

credits @weilingteo.blogspot.com

kinda awesome group here <3,ok with quite a number missing.

that reminds me of SLPC. oh well. book in tomo 7pm (due to sports meet.8X50) and booking out on Monday.most likely gonna train from PasirRis to JE.

Just want to thank you for that short 40 minutes of your life. For chatting up with me,for making me feel as though we were friends forever already,although we only have known each other for that short period of time. But I guess this is what I call, true friendship forged without time as a limitation.

Really, the warm fuzzy feeling,like we were the best of friends..totally made my day.

so badly wanting to meet you soon.it's been quite some time and am missing everything that you have once told me. I miss how you pushed me on despite everything going against the flow.

You know.that was exactly how much you meant to me.although you didn't know.

For now,I just wanna thank you for reviving us (:

with the comfort of design (:

Arms Race

and so now I can finally understand the true meaning behind that Comprehension Passage done in 2010. It was on the Human Race,where all of us fight to be ahead of others. It's known as the Arms Race. every single event all rush to participate and fight for a place in it.

Where slacking is no longer a way out,and pushing on is no longer an option,but rather something that you are expected to do.

And to make the best of every situation that am placed in,I guess the only way is to really ignore image and do beyond even the best of your ability.

and yes,that's what I shall fight for for the next few days.

this period of my life,am going to make a mental note to not let it head down to the drain.

I made this promise to seek justice.and I have to see myself through this tough times so that the road ahead will or rather,might be better.

Someone once told me before that the strongest people aren't those who have never had failed,but rather those who have failed,and in fact many times,but they still clench their teeth and carry on fighting.

every breath that we take,every little step that we inch forward is a test of courage,how strong we are,not physically,but mentally.and this test is also the test of faith,the test of how much you believe in yourself that you can do it. whatever you venture upon,setbacks are bound to be inevitable,but how are you going to change this negativity into something much more interesting,something say,less disturbing.How would you do that? Where will the drive and motivation come from?

Come on,we are all humans,we need that little push every now and then,nothing to be ashamed of,but instead something to be proud of cos' at the very least you dare to face up to your problems (:

deadlines

many deadlines to be met for the next 2 weeks,but those aside,I suppose there are many other non-literal forms of deadlines out there too.

and your presence seems to be a deadline over ran. but at least it was better late than never yeah?

everything happens for a reason.that I must say and emphasise. 

truly,cherish everything while you still can,before you regret after losing them.imagine the pain and agony.and then you will probably know how you will feel after the loss.

but if you have that little tad of problem imagining that,I suggest,just a suggestion,get something done bout that relationship.

Not about the effort you placed in my dears. It's about how much further you are willing to do based on your own initiatives.Chances to head back to you guys are rare now considering our busy schedules,so you have to work on one another's strengths and weaknesses to push the entire group to greater heights. 

It's going to be a tough ride as you all choose your routes.either to be like us,join Senior Ventures,or be like your ex-ex-chairman;join as Senior Server,or also forget about this whole organisation and move on with other commitments in life.As much as we want to dissuade you from choosing the last route,we still want you guys to know where does your true passion lie.There is really no reasoning behind the fact that one is being forced into doing something he/she doesn't really enjoy.

Camps are getting tougher cos they want to sieve out the differences in all of us.We enter,most likely being Strawberries,and we are all trained to become a stronger us upon graduation;now you guys have went for Year 1 Orientation Camp,you guys talked about it,realised it wasn't as easy as before.

wondered if it was just you,or was it the camp had really gotten out of a "normal human"'s sense of endurance

so we tell you,it's not just you;everyone is experiencing this,and the only reason why we can survive through it all,(believe it or not) is the bond that you have created unknowingly.

The road ahead is filled with challenges too many to be counted.hence instead of wasting the effort to count those small little problems you might face,why don't we just toughen up and face up to them all?

Make yourself proud,you joined the organisation at the start for a good reason;that I believe.

make that your motivation,and you can go far. 

we are going to step down in less than 15 days. we hope we have made a difference (be it big or small) in your lives. we don't want to leave a legacy,we want to leave footprints behind,not for you to follow blindly,but to serve as guides. we need you to believe and understand yourselves before you attempt or make any decision. let our motto live on "BE PREPARED"

~Simon,Felicia.

             
Cos I have (: for those out there who are brave enough;tell yourself that light will prevail at the end of the deepest tunnels soon :D


AndersonJC;where the change is.yupp that shall be my tagline for this year,making changes in every single possible places that calls for an important change. hope to be able to keep to those little personal goals and plans. with so many things to juggle in both hands,success or failure has yet to tell its own story.
of course facing up to possible failures,I have braced myself for them.there ought to be some room for improvement yeah?
Haven't yet settle down physically,for CCA has yet to be confirmed.Formal timetable has yet to commence.
But mentally,yes. never have I regretted any of the choices I have so far made,especially the subject combination which am happy to say that I was lucky to not have been offered the Science Stream as personally I feel the Arts Stream is still where my heart's really is. (:
classmates are funny and wonderfully fabulous. ability to chat with anyone anytime anywhere makes me feel as though 2010 and 2011 history has yet again repeat themselves.
only drawback is maybe the ELL which I'll not have a chance to take, :/
but other than that,truthfully none of the roads chose seem to make me feel otherwise.


change is.

You did that on purpose,and nope,I won't blame you.In fact I want to thank you for making me realize at last that nothing happened right from the start,and a future even if it may be true,it will still be a facade. I was hurt too many times cause of this pool of irritable notes.But never did I blamed you. 

You didn't want me to be reminded so you purposefully wandered off.

You didn't want me to feel obligated so you purposefully chose not to inform me.

but what you prolly didn't know is I have already felt your sincerity when it comes to helping me escape from there,and as of now I can safely say each "3017" will just be a number. 

thanks for everything,and wish you all the best in life.

in whatever you do.if we meet coincidentally again,thank luck;no longer fate.

between you and I,fate no longer exists.no hard feelings.

thank you.

(:

When you left,you took a part of me along with you but soon enough I realise that there is no use to look back and regret.Everything happens for a reason,and regrets surely won't bring one any good. I shall make it a lesson learnt, and vow to never to make the same mistake again. oh hopefully.