I forged along the road,trying to make sense of my final decision. His question crushed onto me.Sounds skeptical,and doubtful. I agreed,flesh is strong enough I suppose and heart is definitely willing.More than willing actually.I have been influenced a tad too much,since 2009.She was the one who made the difference in my life,

she was the one who taught me "Mind over Body",she was the one who never failed to make me feel the happiness to serve,and to give my best shot in everything I did. Although we are from differing places,I guess I could safely say I feel at ease,totally,with her.

Nope,not that the "back to base" feeling can't be felt at home,it's just the overall in-explainable oomph I get. Truth is,back at home,the air of ingratitude is way too strong.plus not to mention how colored lenses are a common sight.

Well,I managed to gather up the courage to give this one last shot.Perhaps I might just have a better view finally.But from there,let's say with expectations come disappointments. Better not expect too much from home.Hurt once,bitten twice,grown up thrice.

Of course,home is still where the heart eventually is. I would still offer the best support that my humanity would give as certain better memories still linger on back at home.Attachment is there,to state a fair piece,I must say towards them as a whole,am still gonna not give up my heart on it.But towards certain areas,please am sorry to mention but temptation to go another way is greater than to stay on.blame the inhumanity I experienced especially in my last 3 months.too hurtful.

Alas,But in fact,this decision,am pretty sure I won't regret it,no matter how tough the journey would be or how tiring the entire commitment awaits.

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